...Maybe it was because I turned on the TV and searched channels and Lady and The Tramp was on. Maybe it was because I looked outside in the yard and didn't see two beady little eyes looking back at me. Maybe it was because I walked to the front door expecting to have to take a large step at the bottom of the stairs for a dog lounging and there was nothing there. Maybe it was because Bubba seemed so lost and sad and kept looking at me with his sweet brown eyes...the ones that said, "why are things so different now?" I don't know...there are probably a million different reasons but today was a hard day without my Zekey Zoo. I sure do miss that little boy. I miss every little thing about him and I have to say I've never experienced this. I've never lost an "someone" like this. With Healy, I left David but she was still around...I knew that. I just miss my boy...and the worst thing is I can't find a picture I have of him...as a puppy. I had it a couple months ago but now, it's nowhere to be found. ARG!!!! It will get easier, right?!
And then...something came along, unexpected to make me smile. Don't think me crazy and stupid...but Jim had control of the the TV remote and he found ELF. ELF was on. When he turned it I said, "Is this really on?" And Jim said, "Yes". And I just laughed. There is nothing in the world that makes me laugh more than ELF! Zeke, I believe, was truly watching out for me. I mean, March 3rd? And Elf is on? Who would do that but Zeke. Oh man! My little by is looking out for me (with TV programming? I know it seems strange but the "Lord" works in mysterious ways!)
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