I'll Probably Be Going To Hell!!!

So, I know that as a teacher, I'm not supposed to "hate" students but there is this one student that I absolutely hate. Maybe "hate" is too strong a word. How about really, really, really, really can't stand. Really. He not only makes my skin crawl but he also annoys the living shit out of me (hmm...is shit living?). In addition, he totally creeps me out and today when I saw him at school at 6:30 (he was kicked off the bus for 3 days and his mom has to drop him off at 6AM) I seriously contemplated not unlocking my classroom door thinking he may try to "get me". I can't explain why he gives me this feeling really, but let me try.

First of all, he is a huge faker. He'll walk in the room, for instance, and there will be a desk right in front of him and he'll dramatically trip over it and then say really loudly, "Oh my God!!! I didn't even see that there! Did you see that Mrs. _____?" (A total attention seeker) Anymore, my answer will be (sarcastically while rolling my eyes) "Yeah, and so did you. No one is fooled." And in my mind (and under my breath) I say, "Loser!"

Second, he writes ALL over himself. In pen or marker or whatever is handy. By the end of the day - I have him last period - both his arms will be completely covered. With stupid shit. Redneck shit. He is a complete and absolute redneck by the way. He even had a homemade "wifebeater" on today. Like I want to see his nasty hairy armpits!

He also picks at himself. In order to draw blood. He'll do things to his mouth so that his mouth will start bleeding or his arm or knuckles and he'll walk up to me and say, "Mrs. ________, I don't know what I did but I'm bleeding all of a sudden." My answer: "Well, I sat here and watched you pick at yourself - that might be why you suddenly started spewing blood you annoying redneck freak!!!" (I didn't say that last part).

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!! Why do I let this kid annoy me so badly?! And you know, he's probably going to end up in jail (for killing his mean teacher?). I need to choose a better attitude toward this kid. Really. Before he drops out of school (he's an 18 year old sophomore) he's going to gun me down.

Okay - I gotta boogie - to teach redneck losers! Dammit! Where is that better attitude?! Anyway, long day at work today - there from 6:30 until 7:30! Barf! Two more days Mom, can't wait.