Oh and I have many of them. Recently? Well, I need to get a job. Yes, I have a job but I need to get a job through the summer because everything that is seeming to come up is starting to freak me out and I feel like I need to put a dent in this Equity line. Not to mention that my car's lease is up soon and who knows if I'll have to put money down on that. Not to mention that the taxes for the house will be coming at the same time my lease is up and then, oh yeah, my insurance bills will be due. And, oh yeah, I'm sure my roof will start leaking then or maybe my house will burn down or the computer will break again or we'll have termites or some other catastrophe. Can you tell that I'm starting to freak out? When I freak out, I start to have weird dreams and random thoughts and I start taking a lot of baths as a way of decompressing. I wish I were still a smoker. I would love to have just one cigarette right now. It would be the best cigarette ever. Better even than the cigarette in the morning with coffee or after sex or after dinner or with a glass of wine.
So, weird dreams. Recently? I had a dream that I was walking around somewhere and I saw this restaurant. Now in my dream it was the restaurant that we all went to right before Maggie moved (Slim's) but in my dream it was named Bella's (I don't' know why). So, this is a restaurant that often has a set menu with a set price. In my dream, under the restaurants sign, it said $795. Which meant that the set dinner that night was that amount of money. In my dream I said, "Bummer, I can't afford that." So I went in and sat at the counter so I could just watch the two chefs work. I know, I'm weird. So I'm watching them and the food looks wonderful and I'm starved (and the one chef is really cute). Finally, they notice me and say hi. I say hi back and they ask who I am. I tell them, no one in particular and as I'm saying this, I'm watching the head chef make this wonderful looking concoction: A drink with pineapple, peach, some sort of liquor, of course, and then he sets it in front of me. So anyway, I'm telling the two men that I'm no one but maybe they know my dad and I drop his name. They both go "OH!!!" and they get this huge plate together, invite me into the kitchen, sit me at a table and just as they were setting this gourmet meal in front of me (lobster and other decadent things) my alarm went off. THIS is my recent luck!
Okay, here is my most recent random thought: If I were a daring woman and had impulse and no fear, I would up and move. Where you ask? One of two places (and this is where it gets weird): either Maine - somewhere remote but with really beautiful scenery and near the water with cheap lobster (and Sam Shepherd like in Baby Boom - he'd be my vet and bed warmer) OR Scotland, where everything is near the water and the food is supposed to be terrible (although I've heard it is actually very good) and it doesn't matter what the men look like because they would all talk so beautifully that you could just keep the lights off and wouldn't ever have to look at them. But, alas, I have no courage and I never take any chances and I'm too afraid of...everything.
Okay, I'm done being weird. And no, I haven't been drinking.
1 comment:
I don't want you to move, but if you had to choose between Maine and Scotland, I'd choose Scotland. Maine would be nice, but Scotland is historic, and, like you said, everywhere is near the water. What fun!! Oh yeah, and then I could come visit. :-)
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